A farewell missed

A farewell missed.

We said good-bye with so much left to say
We knew inside we'd find another way
We're not the same as when we first began
The time and place we almost left behind
They will never be as they were before.

A farewell missed.

When I said it was not all me
You gave me the silence treatment
Are you still mad that I gave up long before you did?
of course you are
of course you are
Are you still mad I tried to mold you into who I wanted you to be?
of course you are
of course you are

Now that you were gone
While I was not there
A farewell missed.

I lost something to my own blindly fueled rage
But It was not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you, but I won't take it all on

I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.
For blaming myself for your unhappiness
And for denying myself to somehow make us compatible
And I'm sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else.
I'm sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.
And for trying to fit a rectangle into a ball

Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ?
Forgetting you or forgetting myself...

Now that I'm free
And I can go on with my life
And things will never be the same again.

Top 10 things I hate the most

1 Packing
2 Unpacking
3 Last minute study
4 Flu
5
6
7

(I will come back to this later!)

What is your reason?

What is your reason you wake up each day?

What is your reason going to the class as early as 8 o'clock in the morning?

What is your reason you study so hard that you hardly have sufficient sleep?

What is your reason being happy all the time?...and being sad of course.

What is your reason that you're willing to sacrifice most of your time?

What is your reason that you don't care spending some of your money?

What is your reason you sleep everynight?

What is your only reason you do what you're doing right now?

Well, for me, I have my own reason.

One reason.

The only reason I've figured out.

Of all the ups and downs and everything that is in between.

The only reason.

What is yours?

Doin' the Undone

Yesterday, marked another sad achievement in my life-I did poor in Mechanics of Machines,MOM paper-eventhough my claim doesn't come with the marking, but ppl say you cn always guess ur marks based on what you'd done during the exam and I found that to be true most of the time. So, later after the exam, my fella and I ( who both happen to have obtained low course work marks for this subject) decided to complete the 2nd assignment and submit it while knowing the due date for courseworks correction was over. We couldn't help to loose 7.5% marks of the overall courseworks marks...imagine 1 assignment contributes 7.5% of the overall marks. That is nearly same as 15 marks in our final exam of 100 total marks! And it was not on purpose that we didn't submit the assignment in the first place. Yeah, you know, as the Malay saying goes " Melayu Mudah Lupa" and "Manusia itu pelupa" we are able to forgive ourselves on this event..Ahahaha! Okay, right at this moment, we're doing the undone eventhough the final exam for this subject is over. However, of all the critics on the subject, there is one thing I appreciate out of this course-that is cam designing. It is great to find yourself able to design a CAM at the end of the semester...CAM, a genius solution in automotive engines in the early days..but now ppl are forced to utilize smart engine which is equipped with circuit and microprocessor as alternative for CAM. Nevermind though..I'm still glad to have had the knowledge of the CAM designing, which is the first step towards engine designing..Ahahaha..Or is it? Okay..kamon kamon siapkan assignment...!! Hopefully Mr Faruq still accepts late submissions..Amin~

TOUGHEST WEEK YET

(PIC: Lecturer's solution to our given assignment of Heat Transfer ..Purposely prepared for the Finals..They do this all the time to help us..Thnx to them, at least we could pass the course. Huahua!)


Thursday, being another tough day in my llife as starting from last week, till yet next week, are UTP's final exam weeks......Blurghh...I couldn't sigh more. For the first time in my life, at this point, I feel like I need a Holiday. A meaningful one..I mean in sense of relaxing myself. Yearning for a small chalet, set near a beach, (I'm having prob pronouncing beach as 'bitch'..Huahua!) and I wouldn't take the effort to walk along the beach and enjoy the scenery whatsoever...I would laze on the comfy bed instead...I imagine my self smelling the Holiday scents which you usually find on the hotel's bed sheet, towels, and in the bath tub..Ahahaha! Nk balik nk balik...!!