A farewell missed

A farewell missed.

We said good-bye with so much left to say
We knew inside we'd find another way
We're not the same as when we first began
The time and place we almost left behind
They will never be as they were before.

A farewell missed.

When I said it was not all me
You gave me the silence treatment
Are you still mad that I gave up long before you did?
of course you are
of course you are
Are you still mad I tried to mold you into who I wanted you to be?
of course you are
of course you are

Now that you were gone
While I was not there
A farewell missed.

I lost something to my own blindly fueled rage
But It was not all me
It's not all my fault
I may remind you, but I won't take it all on

I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.
For blaming myself for your unhappiness
And for denying myself to somehow make us compatible
And I'm sorry to myself.
My apologies begin here before everybody else.
I'm sorry to myself.
For treating me worse than I would anybody else.
And for trying to fit a rectangle into a ball

Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ?
Forgetting you or forgetting myself...

Now that I'm free
And I can go on with my life
And things will never be the same again.